Now this is what the Lord Almighty says: “Give careful thought to your ways. You have planted much, but have harvested little. You eat, but never have enough. You drink, but never have your fill. You put on clothes, but are not warm. You earn wages, only to put them in a purse with holes in it”. Haggai 1:5-6
When God gives me the same message over and over again, through my daily Bible Study, my monthly Bible Study, “random” reading of His Word and even my husband, I know I am in trouble. Then, even my thick brain recognizes that He is speaking to me. Many times this week, He showed me that I am not satisfied with what I have. God has given me so much. I have a patient husband who loves me very much and is building me a barn, something he never said he would do! I have two sweet boys and several young women who look to me for guidance. All my family lives nearby and is healthy. I have a good job in a profession I enjoy. I have a car to drive and when it breaks, a husband to fix it. A nice house to live in with a big yard, garden and trees. I have a horse, a dog, a bird, and a rabbit. I have a great church, wonderful Sunday School class, and opportunities for ministry. Most importantly, I have a God who loves me, has a plan for me and sent His Son to die for me. What more could anyone want or need? The problem is, I want another horse. I found him this week, and have been obsessing over him, listing all of the reasons that I should have him and scheming to get the money to buy him. He’s a Florida Cracker horse and a Florida historian should have a Florida horse, don’t you think? Not to mention that he is well trained, ready for trail rides and gaited so he is a smoother ride that my sweet but bouncy Morgan Horse. I’ve have been through it all, but the bottom line is that the timing is not right, and my discontented spirit reveals much about the condition of my heart. I spend too much time thinking about what I don’t have rather than the blessings that I do have. I must admit that I have been greedy, demanding and ungrateful. I also must recognize that my self-centered attitude is a slap in the face not only to my husband who has worked so tirelessly on a barn, but to my God who has provided me with so many blessings. Why must I focus only on the one thing I cannot have? I have resolved to change my attitude, starting with the concept that, like the Psalmist, I will be content with only one request. Psalm 27:4 has been my focus this week. It says, “One thing I ask of the LORD, this is what I seek: that I may dwell in the house of the LORD all the days of my life, to gaze upon the beauty of the LORD and to seek Him in his temple. (NIV) There are so many choices, so much I can desire in this world, but only one that bring true meaning-seek God. He alone will satisfy.