Be gracious to me, O Lord, for I am languishing; heal me, O Lord, for my bones are troubled. Psalm 6:2
I think I owe God an apology. No, I know I owe God an apology. I underestimated Him. Remember this post? http://cathyslusser.com/2016/08/acfw-conference-report-1/ The one where I said I didn’t expect God to heal me? The one where I said it was enough that He was with me in the midst of the pain? Where I listed all the places that my body hurts and how God showed Brandilyn where to pray for them? Since that day in the prayer room, I have systematically been taking those pains to doctors. I figured if God knew about them, it was time for me to acknowledge them instead of keeping them a secret. I started at the ear doctor. I have been worried that I was losing my hearing in my right ear. Turns out my hearing is fine. The problems I have are caused by trying to keep track of conversations in noisy rooms. Distractions combined with my medicines make that difficult. But, my ears are okay. One thing off the worry list. Then, I went to my neurologist about the leg pain. I didn’t want any more pain medicine, just wanted to state my fear that I am headed for a wheel chair. He did some tests, the pain happens only when I am standing which is not indicative of MS. He recommended that I see an orthopedic doctor. I was able to get an appointment two days later, a miracle in itself. The orthopedic doctor compared my x-rays from a year ago. All the cartilage in my knees has disappeared in the last year. That is the cause of the pain, bone on bone grinding when I walk or stand. He gave me a shot in both knees. The pain is almost completely gone. What a relief to know it is not related to MS. A double knee replacement is in the future, but unlike MS, it is fixable. In one to three years, I will have to make the decision whether to do two at once or one at a time. But, like I said, it is fixable. What a weight off my shoulders. And husband’s too. He was drawing plans for wheelchair ramp. We were thinking about renovating our bathroom. Now, that doesn’t seem as necessary. Such good news! Next stop was the eye doctor. The torn retina is completely healed! There is nothing wrong with my eyes. No need to see the doctor for another year. By now, I came to expect news of healing. So, it was no surprise when X-rays of my mouth revealed that the tooth that hurts is due to roots grown into the sinus cavity. Also fixable. I still have MS. I still have trigeminal neuralgia, but a lot of the causes of the pain that I complained about before going to Nashville and praying with Brandiyn now have solutions when a month ago, I felt hopeless and lost. Like, I said, I owe God an apology. He’s bigger than I thought.